Slipping

I am one of those people who hates Valentine's Day, even when I'm in a relationship. Yeah, I know, add that to my dislike of Christmas, Thanksgiving, Easter, and the Fourth of July and I'm pretty much a regular scrooge. I've always done my best to escape attention and affection on February 14th. But particularly this year, after the entire Alex fiasco and my inability to tell my parents about my bisexuality and some very recent (and heartbreaking) realizations in my personal life, I'm just really not in the mood to spend a ridiculous amount of money on furthering Hallmark's annual revenue so that I can hand someone a slip of paper with pre-recorded sentiment on it.
Maybe that makes me a bad person, but with all of the insanity and malcontent in my life and among the people that I know, I just don't have the heart to care anymore. Realistically, I'm just trying to get through this month without a complete mental breakdown. But taking into account this weekend so far and last weekend in addition to the weeks in between, I really don't think that my wish is going to be an amazing success.

Today's Pick 5 (selected from 'Recently Played' in itunes):

Gray or Blue: Jaymay-

"Don't second guess your feelings, you were right from the start, and I know
that she's your lover, but she's nowhere near your heart. This city is for
strangers as the sky is for the stars."

Landed: Ben Folds-

"Back when I was still in love, 'till I opened my eyes and walked out the door,
and the clouds came tumbling down"

Her Morning Elegance: Oren Lavie-

" And she fights for her life as she puts on her coat, and she fights for her
life on the train. She looks at the rain as it pours. And she fights for her
life as she goes to the store, where the thought she has caught by a thread. She
pays for her bread and she goes. Nobody knows."

Shine: The Morning of-

" Never felt this way in my whole life. Never had this feeling before tonight.
Can't get you off my mind, 'cause you shine oh you know you shine."

A Lack of Color: Deathcab for Cutie-

"This is fact not fiction, for the first time in years. And all the girls and
every girlie magazine can't make me feel any less alone. I'm reaching for the
phone, to call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come
home. But I know its too late, and I should have given you a reason to stay."