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I haven't been posting lately for a myriad of reasons. At first, it was because I spent the first week or so of my break utterly devastated. As you undoubtedly read, things weren't that great around here for awhile. But life went on, things got better, and I finally managed to get that thing we call closure (synonym for: That reason we no longer bang out heads against a desk screaming WHY WHY WHY). Then I wasn't posting for a completely different reason: I've been so happy, I haven't thought to post because I've been doing things.

In the last few weeks, I've been really good. Great, actually. Even with some of the remaining repercussions of the drama in my life, I've been good. Happy, and excited, and motivated to get up in the early afternoon (I'd say morning, but I'm up all night so I sleep through the morning for sanity purposes). I've felt inspired to read again, to write, to sing out loud and bead and shower and actually run a brush through my hair. I put on clean clothes now, I eat food that isn't shitty, and I excercise while listening to the most exciting music you'll ever hear. I communicate with my mother without biting sarcasm and I haven't uttered the words "I hate my life" in days. Things still aren't perfect, but life never is, and I'm just so excited to actually want to be a part of society and life to really worry about the imperfections. Because yeah, sometime soon I will have to deal with them. But for right now, I'm working on the now and the here.

-Sarah Elizabeth