Turning

In the wee hours of this morning, I was talking to Alex and I came to a semi-realization. I say semi because I've talked about it so many times, but really I try not to think about it. The truth is, I am almost completely uninterested in going to college. I knew this before I graduated from high school, and before I even filled out college applications. But getting anything other than a four year degree is not an option in my family (neither of my parents finished college).

I told Alex that ideally, I would get a few jobs working in some artsy or nerdy shops around Philadelphia, while living in my own studio in either the city or a nearby town on the Jersey side. I know that whatever I would end up doing, degree or not, will require working in a city and probably some sort of commute by train. I've realized over the last few months that I love splitting my time between two cities. The movement, and the accessibility has been amazing. I can get cheap food and find activists of any nature near New York, while spending calm nights and coffee hours with friends down by Philadelphia. Of course, there are the negatives of each location, but ultimately I get to live the "best of both worlds", just so long as I keep my energy positive.

On another note, the Age of the Aquarius is among us (every 2,000 years the ages change. The last age we lived in was the age of the Pisces. That began around the same time as Jesus). The Age of Aquarius is all about Unity and Love, so the next 2,000 years should be an amazing part of this Earth's life. The Age of the Pisces was a male dominated age, and those times are coming to a close now. Of course, as a part of this, the "end of the world" in 2012 (because there are people who actually think the world will end!) is actually a separation between the enlightened and the unenlightened. This whole "event" is really difficult to explain without hand motions signifying wholeness and a lot of love, so I encourage anyone who understands to try and explain it to the people close to them! (Likewise, if you know me personally and you want to know, please ask!).

I guess that being said, there are a lot of things going on in my life right now, and today I actually felt the shift. Yes, I am impatient to get out of college so I can actually begin to live the life that I want to live. But I've been presented with an opportunity to meet new, wonderful people and to feel closer to friends from my past. And yeah, it can be frustrating feeling like a nomad sometimes, but I've learned a lot through the splitting of my time and now I've come to actually enjoy it. The biggest issue has always been the lovely tangle I've made out of my relationships, and I decided to just let things happen. I'm not tying myself to people anymore, because this creates unneeded stress on not only me, but them too. After talking to Alex, everything that's been ugly between us for so many months felt like it melted away, and we were speaking more as if we were remembering good times than as if we were fighting to fit some sort of forced friendship.

Its all about the energy!

-Sarah elizabeth