The Third First Entry.

Two days ago I tried to post an entry on this blog. Yesterday I tried to post another. We are now on day three and still no post.
This is typical for me- I am constantly re-thinking, re-organizing, and throwing away old things in my life and trying to replace them with something else. I had a website before this, but I'm trying to start fresh.
I guess one of the reasons I decided to start from scratch (yet again) is because I started my first semester of college last week. Its a tiny, but decent college just outside of NYC that has a little bit of everything. So far the college itself has a few kinks it needs to work out- there has been a lot of miscommunication between the administrative offices, but everyone is incredibly friendly and there are a lot of comforts the school offers that make up for the other things.
Of course, as I expected, I've struggled with a few things now that I've been here for a few days. Panic attacks and Paranoia, which I've always experienced at home, have intensified a lot since class ended on Thursday. I've also been cleaning like a crazy person- cleansing every surface and sweeping every few days. I don't have a roommate (a story for another day) so its just me in a room with twice as much furniture as I need. Overall I'm doing okay- I'm making friends and being more social then I tend to be at home, despite the anxiety I've felt overtaing me almost all day today and most of yesterday. I've found myself having to do a lot of soul searching recently, but hopefully I'll be able to come out the other end okay. As I've mentioned before, I very much expected this.
So if you're still reading at this point and you're wondering what you can expect from me in the future- well, here it goes:
My name, for the purposes of this blog, is Luna Marie. Luna after an old internet name i associate myself with and Marie after my mother, who I miss terribly even though we drove each other crazy when I lived at the house. I'm going to be talking about college a lot, what its like, how i'm dealing with it, and how my anxiety manifests itself during this time. Maybe that seems too personal to put on the internet- but I've always needed to use words to express myself, and I've always found solace in the stories of others. I guess I'm hoping that if I write these things on here, someone who needs to will stumble across this blog and know they're not the only one out there who is trying not to struggle with this adjustment. After all, I know I'm not alone- so why pretend that I am?

More to come,
Luna Marie